i felt like it

stumbled, and by stumbled i mean stalked this cute girls blog the other day, and decided that i'd take on another 'get to know me' type post. these are hard, but their fun and i hope that if you have a blog, you'll do it too. 

+ i am... a firm believer in the man upstairs, a lover of all things beauty, a cry baby, well, to be honest... i am a lot of things -  but mostly a devoted, loving wife to my best friend and husband. 

+ i want...  more than anything, to meet my babes. i've looked forward to starting a family ever since i can remember. being a mom is all that i've ever wanted, i can't wait for the day that i can laugh, cry, and occasionally want to scream with them. they inspire me to be better every single day, and i haven't even met them yet, i can't imagine the power they'll have over me when i have finally met them.

+ i have... the most incredible family, i couldn't have been more blessed in that department. yes, i'm one of those who include my closest friends, family. i love you all. 

+ i wish... only sometimes do i wish that my mom would have let me be a little more girly growing up, instead of giving me the worlds ugliest hair cuts, clothes, and pushing me to play softball instead of putting me in dance classes like all the other girls. but then i remember how i turned out, and hey, its not so bad right? love you momma! 

+ i hate... insecurities. we all have them, and they suck. i'll never, ever understand why we feel the need to compare ourselves to someone else, or the need to constantly tear ourselves down. how horrible is that? not only are we bashing on ourselves, we're bashing on something that our gracious heavenly father worked so hard on. he made us all beautiful, in our own ways and it breaks my heart to think that i've ever looked at myself and thought of myself as anything less than beautiful. nope, never again. 

+ i fear... change. change is good, i know thats exactly what you're thinking. its what i always try to talk myself into believing as well. but i just can't, because even if it ends up being good, taking the risk of any sort of change scares the crap out of me. i get comfortable, why can't i stay comfortable? riddle me that.

+ i search... for inspiration. in everything i see, anything that i can get my hands on. i'm easily inspired, whether thats through music, a quote, a piece of scrap paper on the ground.. i try to find beauty in all things. 

+ i wonder... how i got so lucky? can anyone explain this to me? i lucked out with the most loving, handsome, and incredible husband that any girl could ask for, i have to pinch myself just to make sure that my life is real.

+ i regret... ever bleaching my hair. how stupid was i? not only did it completely and totally damage my hair, but i never truly loved it. i just did it because everyone else was doing it (yikes, i know) butttt, it couldn't have been that bad considering that's all mitch remembers from the first night that we met was my "platinum, blinding hair" hey, i had to catch his attention somehow right? 

+ i ache... seeing someone i love in pain. in fact, i probably ache more when someone else is in pain, than myself. i hurt, definitely. but i think it hurts me more to see someone that i love and care so much about in pain because i feel hopeless, like there is absolutely nothing that i can do to fix the situation. i hate that. 

+ i always... kiss my husband goodnight. i kiss him when i wake up. sheeesh, i kiss him when i'm leaving the room (ewwww PDA) but i can't help it. he's my favorite thing in the world.

+ i usually... turn to my little brother and sister for approval for anything that i do. they've been by my sides my whole life, so naturally they have to be a part of every decision i make, every thing. we're the three best friends that anyone could have.

+ i am not... a girly, girl. weird right? i have this ridiculous obsession with all things beauty, but more likely than not you'll find me in a big t-shirt and a pair of mitchs basketball shorts watching friday night lights. i definitely have my kicks of being a girl, but you'd never find me crying over a broken nail, nuh uh. never. 

+ i am grateful... for prayer. i honestly don't know where i'd be or what i'd do without the gift of prayer. seriously though, how lucky am i to be able to turn to my savior and to be able to communicate with him every single day? as lucky as it gets. 

+ i sing... actually no, i don't... okay... i do. to my steering wheel, and in the shower, but mainly to my husband, we both pretend like i'm a professional, even though he's probably wanting to kill me by the time the song is over and in the back of my head i just know that ain't happenin'... it never gets old though. 

+ i never... broke a bone, got stitches, or made an appearance in the ER growing up. my parents probably love me more than my siblings for that simple fact right there. 

+ i love... wrestling around with my husband. some people think it is absolutely ridiculous and childish, but i guarantee when we're old and gray, we'll still try to beat the other up the stairs. trust me, its funner and harder than it sounds. 

+ i like... ice cream? does that count?

+ i sometimes... get too emotionally attached to things. books, tv shows, movies, etc. so when something bad happens, i break down and well, i cry. you'd think it'd be just a 10 minute cry max and then i'd be over it right? but no. i cry for days on end and can't seem to stop. there's got to be a therapist for that, right? i'll look into it. 

 + i miss... high school football games. there's just something different about the cold crisp air, hot chocolate in hand, and everyone on their feet cheering, that gives me chills. i grew up in a football family, so a football girl i'll always be. 

+ i cry... over everything, didn't we just go over this? 

+ i admit... that my life, my marriage, my family, none of it is perfect. we are human, there are fights, there are tears (mostly from me) but there is love and at the end of the day that is what over powers everything else. nothing, and no one is perfect, and i'm just glad that we can be real about it. 

+ i lose... my phone, keys, etc. at least once a day. in fact, just the other day, i was looking for the keys to our apartment and of course went into automatic panic mode after five seconds of not finding them, so we searched everywhere. the car, under the car, the sidewalk leading to our apartment, nothing. it wasn't until something popped in my head... i reached down into our pringles can (that we had just filled with trash from the car.. gum wrappers, chewed up straws, etc.) i dumped it out on the sidewalk and whatdyaknow? there it was, at the bottom of a PRINGLES CAN that i was this close to throwing away! my life... 

+ i need... the gospel, without it i'd be nowhere.

+ i hope... that i can, one day, be as good of a mother as my mother is to me. she is always there for me, always uplifting, and has always, always lead me in the right direction. i just hope that i can be at least half the woman that mother she is, because then i'll know i succeeded. 

+ i... am so thankful for YOU, for reading this.

loves. 

Q&A

i'm an open book - so when my sweet friend kelso tagged me in this fun Q&A tag that's going around .... & well, you know i can't pass down a challenge.  so here goes nothin!

//What is your favorite part of marriage?

you mean apart from the constant laughing, cuddling, and the occasional dance sessions in our kitchen? i'd say that if there was only one thing to chose.. well, i'd have to go with the fact that i'm now blessed with a full time partner! someone who can finish my sentences, correct me when i'm wrong, make me laugh when i'm sad, and give me chills when i don't expect it. i love that.  

//What is your biggest pet-peeve?

this is hard for me, you see... i'm one of those people who gets irritated by the littlest things. copy cats, staring, eating with your mouth open, etc. etc. etc. but again, if i had to chose just one it would be: negativity. nothing urkes me more than when people complain about all of the negative things going on in their life - you know? or someone that can't be happy for another, and have the need to constantly drag others down. i wish that instead they would use those situations to strive to improve their own life, use it as motivation... because lets be honest at the end of the day the only thing you're doing is hurting yourself. 

//Any beauty secrets you are dying to tell us?

 remember how i just started a new section for my blog called primp that will be full of any and every beauty secret i have and know? ch-ch-check it out.  

//What is your most embarassing moment? 

greeeeeeat...

so when i was a senior in high school, i made the decision to be in a beauty pageant. well if you know me, you know i'm a tomboy as it is, so me flaunting my stuff up on stage in high heels scared the crap out of me! but i did it anyways, because my mom did, and as a young girl i always promised my parents i would 'follow in her footsteps'. well, the pageant was going fine, i mean i only did it for the experience - winning was the last thing on my mind. so the swimsuit portion happened, and i somehow managed not to fall on my face. the talent portion passed and i only forgot a few steps, (mind you, my sister in law taught me my dancing routine in our living room a week before the pageant and i'd never really danced before to begin with) but it wasn't until the interview section that it got reeeeal good. i had practiced a whole bunch of questions, but i always felt pretty confident in it. so the first question was asked, and i answered immediately and probably talked really fast but felt good about my answer. then came the second question and my mind immediately went blank... "who is the most inspirational person in our society" oooooh crap. i mean i could have easily said oh i don't know - "the president?" considering thats a total "pageant-y" answer. but no, to be honest he didn't even cross my mind. so i stood there -  blank  in front of hundreds of people, for what felt like ten minutes but was only a good 10-15 seconds until i blurted out some random gibberish about how anyone who can be true to themselves can be inspiring and blah blah blah. i was shaking so bad, and just wanted to run off stage and burst into tears, much to my surprise i didn't.. butttt, i still, to this day have nightmares. 

ooooooooh the horror. 

//What is your guilty pleasure?

all things beauty - makeup, hair, clothes, etc. etc. etc. i have a serious problem you guys.

//Where do you see yourself in five years?

the same as now - happy! of course with a few changes but i think the biggest change is obvious.

ever since i can remember, the thing i looked forward to most in life was to have little rugrats running around calling me mom! some people may say that i'm young, while others will be harassing me to have children and while i want to, i think that the savior may have other plans for me right now. i know that in the future i will be able to have kids, and i think and look forward to when that day comes often. i'm anxious to meet our little munch-skins to see if they get mitch's beautiful green eyes, and goofy smile. or if they'll get jipped and end up with some of my genes. all i know is they have me smiling right now and i love them already.

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obviously i want to pass this tag along, because i love to read these, and get to know more about some of my favorite bloggers. 

& well, i choose you pikachu.

+ Alli

+ Lexi

+ Danica

+ Lauren

choose six of these questions to answer, but all eight are up for grabs if you're into this sort of thing - which i really hope you are!

//favorite song off the top of your head, and provide a link if you can!

//who do you look up to most, and why?

//if you could change one thing that has happened to you, what would it be & why?

//what is your favorite memory?

//spillllll - what's your guilty pleasure?

//any beauty secrets that you're currently loving?

//most embarrassing moment

//favorite thing about YOURself - gloat as you may, we love you no matter what!

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of course anyone is welcome to do this, and if you do please, please comment below so i can come read them! 

plowmans perspective

i was looking through my good friend danica's blog and saw that she had this little questionnaire for her sweet husband, and i immediately thought to myself "plowman HAS to do this" so here we are. you guys are finally going to see things from the hubs perspective.

1. Does your wife use your real name or a nickname on her blog?

    This is a funny one, because half the time she uses Mitch but the other half of the time she is calling me Plowman. That is just something that her whole family calls me because Dany has a little brother named mytch, so to make it easier they gave me a nickname. 

2. If you had a blog, what would the title be?

  If i had the time or energy to have a blog, I would aim for it to be something motivational or inspiring that I could look back on if I ever needed to something like BELIEVE because to me that is one of the most powerful words that can mean so much for someone. Because no matter what is going on around us we can always believe and overcome any obstacle. 

3. Do you ever feel ignored by her because of the blog?

    Yes sometimes i feel like she is married to the computer! lately I've just been pretending that we're having a conversation and she is talking back until finally she puts the computer down and tells me to stop talking to my self.

4. How has her blog changed or evolved throughout your relationship?

    At first she just wanted to write things down that had happened in our life. Now she mainly uses it to express herself and she just lets the words flow out, i've never seen anything like it. I tell her at least three times a week she needs to write a book maybe one day after all of her "blogging" she can fix it up real nice like and make a book out of it.

5. What is your favorite post on her blog?

     Is this is a trick question? Obviously all of her post are my favorite... No but really i truly love when she goes into depth about our story, (even though sometimes i sound like the worst human alive) but i really love how she describes things. It takes me back and makes me realize how truly lucky i am to have found her at such a young age. I am very blessed to have her in my life i don't know where i would be with out her.