i felt like it

stumbled, and by stumbled i mean stalked this cute girls blog the other day, and decided that i'd take on another 'get to know me' type post. these are hard, but their fun and i hope that if you have a blog, you'll do it too. 

+ i am... a firm believer in the man upstairs, a lover of all things beauty, a cry baby, well, to be honest... i am a lot of things -  but mostly a devoted, loving wife to my best friend and husband. 

+ i want...  more than anything, to meet my babes. i've looked forward to starting a family ever since i can remember. being a mom is all that i've ever wanted, i can't wait for the day that i can laugh, cry, and occasionally want to scream with them. they inspire me to be better every single day, and i haven't even met them yet, i can't imagine the power they'll have over me when i have finally met them.

+ i have... the most incredible family, i couldn't have been more blessed in that department. yes, i'm one of those who include my closest friends, family. i love you all. 

+ i wish... only sometimes do i wish that my mom would have let me be a little more girly growing up, instead of giving me the worlds ugliest hair cuts, clothes, and pushing me to play softball instead of putting me in dance classes like all the other girls. but then i remember how i turned out, and hey, its not so bad right? love you momma! 

+ i hate... insecurities. we all have them, and they suck. i'll never, ever understand why we feel the need to compare ourselves to someone else, or the need to constantly tear ourselves down. how horrible is that? not only are we bashing on ourselves, we're bashing on something that our gracious heavenly father worked so hard on. he made us all beautiful, in our own ways and it breaks my heart to think that i've ever looked at myself and thought of myself as anything less than beautiful. nope, never again. 

+ i fear... change. change is good, i know thats exactly what you're thinking. its what i always try to talk myself into believing as well. but i just can't, because even if it ends up being good, taking the risk of any sort of change scares the crap out of me. i get comfortable, why can't i stay comfortable? riddle me that.

+ i search... for inspiration. in everything i see, anything that i can get my hands on. i'm easily inspired, whether thats through music, a quote, a piece of scrap paper on the ground.. i try to find beauty in all things. 

+ i wonder... how i got so lucky? can anyone explain this to me? i lucked out with the most loving, handsome, and incredible husband that any girl could ask for, i have to pinch myself just to make sure that my life is real.

+ i regret... ever bleaching my hair. how stupid was i? not only did it completely and totally damage my hair, but i never truly loved it. i just did it because everyone else was doing it (yikes, i know) butttt, it couldn't have been that bad considering that's all mitch remembers from the first night that we met was my "platinum, blinding hair" hey, i had to catch his attention somehow right? 

+ i ache... seeing someone i love in pain. in fact, i probably ache more when someone else is in pain, than myself. i hurt, definitely. but i think it hurts me more to see someone that i love and care so much about in pain because i feel hopeless, like there is absolutely nothing that i can do to fix the situation. i hate that. 

+ i always... kiss my husband goodnight. i kiss him when i wake up. sheeesh, i kiss him when i'm leaving the room (ewwww PDA) but i can't help it. he's my favorite thing in the world.

+ i usually... turn to my little brother and sister for approval for anything that i do. they've been by my sides my whole life, so naturally they have to be a part of every decision i make, every thing. we're the three best friends that anyone could have.

+ i am not... a girly, girl. weird right? i have this ridiculous obsession with all things beauty, but more likely than not you'll find me in a big t-shirt and a pair of mitchs basketball shorts watching friday night lights. i definitely have my kicks of being a girl, but you'd never find me crying over a broken nail, nuh uh. never. 

+ i am grateful... for prayer. i honestly don't know where i'd be or what i'd do without the gift of prayer. seriously though, how lucky am i to be able to turn to my savior and to be able to communicate with him every single day? as lucky as it gets. 

+ i sing... actually no, i don't... okay... i do. to my steering wheel, and in the shower, but mainly to my husband, we both pretend like i'm a professional, even though he's probably wanting to kill me by the time the song is over and in the back of my head i just know that ain't happenin'... it never gets old though. 

+ i never... broke a bone, got stitches, or made an appearance in the ER growing up. my parents probably love me more than my siblings for that simple fact right there. 

+ i love... wrestling around with my husband. some people think it is absolutely ridiculous and childish, but i guarantee when we're old and gray, we'll still try to beat the other up the stairs. trust me, its funner and harder than it sounds. 

+ i like... ice cream? does that count?

+ i sometimes... get too emotionally attached to things. books, tv shows, movies, etc. so when something bad happens, i break down and well, i cry. you'd think it'd be just a 10 minute cry max and then i'd be over it right? but no. i cry for days on end and can't seem to stop. there's got to be a therapist for that, right? i'll look into it. 

 + i miss... high school football games. there's just something different about the cold crisp air, hot chocolate in hand, and everyone on their feet cheering, that gives me chills. i grew up in a football family, so a football girl i'll always be. 

+ i cry... over everything, didn't we just go over this? 

+ i admit... that my life, my marriage, my family, none of it is perfect. we are human, there are fights, there are tears (mostly from me) but there is love and at the end of the day that is what over powers everything else. nothing, and no one is perfect, and i'm just glad that we can be real about it. 

+ i lose... my phone, keys, etc. at least once a day. in fact, just the other day, i was looking for the keys to our apartment and of course went into automatic panic mode after five seconds of not finding them, so we searched everywhere. the car, under the car, the sidewalk leading to our apartment, nothing. it wasn't until something popped in my head... i reached down into our pringles can (that we had just filled with trash from the car.. gum wrappers, chewed up straws, etc.) i dumped it out on the sidewalk and whatdyaknow? there it was, at the bottom of a PRINGLES CAN that i was this close to throwing away! my life... 

+ i need... the gospel, without it i'd be nowhere.

+ i hope... that i can, one day, be as good of a mother as my mother is to me. she is always there for me, always uplifting, and has always, always lead me in the right direction. i just hope that i can be at least half the woman that mother she is, because then i'll know i succeeded. 

+ i... am so thankful for YOU, for reading this.

loves. 

tip tuesday: eyeshadow first

just a quick tip tuesday for you guys. but first i have to tell you all a little story and what provoked me to have this TT for y'all. sooo earlier today i was in the midst of my makeup routine when all of the sudden i was parched, so i ran downstairs to grab some water and my husband did the most obvious double take that i have EVER seen… so of course i called him out on it with a long dramatic "whaaaaat?" and he said something along the lines of "your makeup looks funny, you're not finished getting ready are you?" and with some sass i responded with a "no… but you have to think i look pretty anyways" and ran back upstairs only to realize that i wasn't finished with my makeup and he was right.. it did look 'funny' and here's why… i used to get SO frustrated whenever i did my makeup because i would start with foundation and finish the face, then move onto eyeshadow which had fallout and i'd end up having to clean up under my eyes with a q-tip ruining whatever progress i had made with the foundation. plus its a waste, who wants to apply foundation, wipe it off, only to reapply? not me. so i started my routine by switching it up. i start with eyeshadow, and then once done, take a q-tip, makeup wipe, what have you and clean up the fallout from under my eyes and then head to foundation and concealer. this way, you're not wiping away any of the work that you've already done plus you can prevent all those dark random fallout smudge marks that you find half way through the day that no one told you, you had. i've also found this to be effective in the longevity of my makeup as well as giving me a more flawless appearance. this isn't a new trick, and its something that i'm sure some of you already do, but i wanted to share the goods with those of you who don't do this, or have never heard of it. it will change your life!